I am sitting here today completely frustrated. I am feeling annoyed right now because of the way our society works. The way life is. If there is one mess up in life it sometimes means total and complete destruction for others. So what does this mean? I don't know; I know that I am rambling right now out of the frustration that I have in me because of my circumstances. I'm not made at them. I know the life I have right now is being given from people who give me everything they have and I am so grateful for it. It's just....well it's just that I don't want this life. I want something so much more than this and I don't think that others understand. I feel like I am meant to do something big, and I pray to my God that I'm not the one that is delusional to the fact that I'm really not. I want to do something big. I wanna to be big. I don't want the normal life. I want so much more, then what right now has to offer and I'm going to go after it; no matter how hard it us I want to try and I know that God will be with me, always. Knowing that I have God with me is comforting and helps be go everyday, one foot in front of the other, doing what I need to do. And I couldn't do any of it without him because he is what I need.